she decided not to

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Sometimes, I just pray
for another attack.
Bombs, planes, boxcutters.
I don\'t care how.
I just pray
for something
horrible.
I do it because
I really just want
everyone to hold hands,
and to be able to cry
together.
That\'s not a bad thing.
It\'s really not.


(she wasn\'t sure
why she decided not to.)

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